Life is filled with events and memories. Some good and some bad but they are what define the person you are. As Metallica sings or rather screams.."Ash to ash, Dust to dust, Fade to black... But the memory remains." TIme is like the river that flows forever but your memories are permanent imprints on its banks. You are what you have been till this very moment and, like it or not, there is nothing you can change about it. However you can choose to remember the good ones and conveniently forget the bad ones or at least push the bad ones to the back of your mind.
But at sometime or other there will be an incident that will trigger memories relegated to the garbage dumps of your mind. It is at these precise moments that feelings of regret, of hate, of remorse and the like overpower you. People have gone on and on about how a thing of great beauty can silence anyone as one is overwhelmed in its pristine glory. But let me assure you that when these hidden memories come rushing from the back of your head to your eyes and you relive those moments you are nothing short of stunned and speechless. It reminds me of the "Shock and Awe" that the US so proudly and falsely( i might add) claims to have mastered. The pain is all too visible on your face as you analyze the mistakes and how you could have changed the event in hindsight.
There are a lot of things we would have done differently if we were given a second chance. But have you ever thought that this very moment you could be getting a second chance? You could be be making a decision right now that you have already made once before and have been given the privilege of doing again!! Now in this light you would most probably make the same decision as before. You will in all probability make the same decision no matter how many chances you are given. So stop cribbing about life and how you could have changed the world given a second chance. You dont need a second chance.
At every moment of your life you have to make choices. You would like to make the right ones but occasionally, as we are still humans, we will err and make the odd mistake. The odd ones will pain and they will remain to haunt you till the end of time. But is it worth giving up all those good memories for a few bad ones? Yet another choice that you have to make. I hope you make the right decision this time.